Jason Cordingley
All Must Change

(Stamp out prejudice, hatred and intolerance)

This incident touched me like no other,
The life of an innocent tragically ended.
She had done nothing to warrant this act,
Other than choose to be different from the rest.
In this current climate it seems you cannot
Be different to others, stand out from the crowd.
Everyone has to follow the shepherd,
Like lambs to the slaughter, the blind shall be led.

How do you forgive? How do you forget?
How can you turn a blind eye to this crime?
Nothing will change, no-one be blamed,
If we don’t rise against the hatred around us.

We unite to make a change forever,
To open eyes and make them realise it takes all sorts.
You cannot have a world without us,
There’s nothing wrong with wanting to break from normality.
But there are those who don’t agree,
And will do anything to make us fear for our own lives.
So stand together, raise your voices as one,
Let’s show them this is wrong and we’ll stand for it no longer.

How do you forgive? How do you forget?
How can you turn a blind eye to this crime?
Nothing will change, no-one be blamed,
If we don’t rise against the hatred around us.

This tragic loss, this life ended,
Can’t be forgotten, wounds yet mended.
Through Sophie’s memory this all must change,
All must change.

I’m sure that when she’s looking down,
She’s proud of all that you’ve achieved.
A worldwide community brought together,
United in her memory.

This tragic loss, this life ended,
Can’t be forgotten, wounds yet mended.
Through Sophie’s memory this all must change,
All must change.

Bite The Bullet

Give me permission and give me a gun,
I’ll shoot every scally, kill every one.

I want to get out, I need to get out,
This city is killing me, of that there’s no doubt.
This hate-hate relationship has to end here,
My temper is boiling, violence is my fear.

But now there’s a problem, a reason to stay:
I don’t wanna leave her, I couldn’t, no way.
But how do I ask her to follow me now,
It’s too soon for that yet, I wouldn’t know how.

And so I must stay,
Bite the bullet, swallow the rage.
There’s no other way,
Grit my teeth, suffer this cage.

Give me permission and give me a gun,
I’ll shoot every scally, kill every one.
Everyone on this whole planet will thank me,
Even their own parents, we’ll finally be free.
Free of the suffering we all are put through,
The fear of the shadows, what else do we do?
Give me the gun and give me a name,
The big ones, the small ones, they’ll all die the same.

And yet there’s a problem, a reason to stay:
I don’t wanna leave her, I couldn’t, no way.
But how do I ask her to follow me now,
It’s too soon for that yet, I wouldn’t know how.

And so I must stay,
Bite the bullet, swallow the rage.
There’s no other way,
Grit my teeth, suffer this cage.

I wish it was them that had to bite the bullet,
Bite down on it hard and watch your head explode.

Burn

This world is going to hell,
I don’t care what they do, I don’t care what they say.
Everyone’s out for themselves,
The ending is nigh coz there’s no other way.
Everything burn to the ground,
The fires will rid us of all the hatred.
Man is it’s own enemy,
And so for it’s sins they’ll all soon be bled.

As I watch from high up above,
The scorching, the screaming, I can't get enough.

This hate consumes my innocence,
The fires that burn with rage.
This is the end of your lifestory,
So watch as I slowly turn the last page.

The shadow is falling,
The coat-tails of Death to usher in all the pain.
Man's greed is it’s poison,
Too stuffed through it’s gluttony to notice the stain.
The signs are so obvious,
But Man is too blind to see things are not fine.
I see the signs now,
And my goal is to make sure their fate is not mine.

As I watch from high up above,
The scorching, the screaming, I can't get enough.

This hate consumes my innocence,
The fires that burn with rage.
This is the end of your lifestory,
So watch as I slowly turn the last page.

The ending is nigh, there's no other way,
Nothing you do and nothing you say
Can pay the price of your decadent ways,
You're living in fear as you're counting the days.
The ending is nigh and there's no other way,
The ending is nigh and there's no other way.
The ending is nigh and there's no other way.
The ending is nigh and there's no other way.

This hate consumes my innocence,
The fires that burn with rage.
This is the end of your lifestory,
So watch as I slowly turn the last page.

Deity Position Vacant

I often wish that you were there, wish I had something to believe in.
Never felt so alone as now, never felt so empty.
Millions of people worship you, believe you are good, believe in your power
To wash away sin, to cleanse the soul, but it's just an excuse to sin again.

You don't see me, you just couldn't care less.
We all pray to you but we have been forsaken.

I'd pray for happiness, pray for silence, pray for this pain to end.
But you never listen, you don't give a damn, coz you don't exist anymore.

Don't get me wrong: I used to believe in you more than most,
Believed you created all that's good, believed you'd protect us, believed you cared.
But too many things have happened for me to believe in this anymore.
People are dying left right and centre, if you gave a shit this wouldn't continue to happen.

You don't see us, you've gone far far away.
We are left here to wallow in the filth that we've made.

I'd pray for happiness, pray for silence, pray for this pain to end.
But you never listen, you don't give a damn, coz you don't exist anymore.

If I don't believe in Heaven and I don't believe in Hell
Then where do I go when I die?
Do I just stay here and live non-existance
Or is there something else that we are not allowed to see?
Give me something to believe in.

You don't see us, you've gone far far away.
We are left here to wallow in the filth that we've made.

I'd pray for happiness, pray for silence, pray for this pain to end.
But you never listen, you don't give a damn, coz you don't exist anymore.
I'd pray for a miracle, devine intervention, something to make it all stop,
But you never listen, you don't try to help, why should we expect anything else?

Give me something to believe in,
Something to make this all seem more worthwhile.

Fade In The Light of This Day

The path in front of me has always been tough,
Not much of the smooth and too much of the rough.
Obstacles constantly laid at my feet,
Always someone trying to turn up the heat.
Often I’ve felt I should give up the fight,
Hide in the shadows and avoid the light.
Give up the constant fight for survival.

One knock back too many, one sucker punch too heavy,
The fight in me starts to obey.
No longer I’ll look back, the memories I unpacked,
Will fade in the light of this day.

The path in front of me is finally clear,
The goals that I crave are becoming so near.
This time is for action, I finally see,
The only thing holding me back was just me.
I’ve shrugged off the shackles that clouded my mind,
And left all the memories, the bad times behind.
Now it’s not just a fight for survival.

One knock back too many, one sucker punch too heavy,
The fight in me starts to obey.
No longer I’ll look back, the memories I unpacked,
Will fade in the light of this day.

All my fears have now been broken, all uncertainty dies.
Finally my eyes are open, look in to the sunrise.

One knock back too many, one sucker punch too heavy,
The fight in me starts to obey.
No longer I’ll look back, the memories I unpacked,
Will fade in the light of this day.

Fallen For You

I get butterflies in my stomach everytime I think of you,
I miss you although I only saw you last night.
I keep thinking of the things you say and do,
But the problem is this can't be right.

I'm all over you, I don't know what to do,
But I'm feeling so fine.
This feeling inside, I don't know where to hide,
Please say you are mine.

But it scares me how quickly I've fallen for you,
I don't do this, I'm falling head over heels with you.

I feel vulnerable, you've got me under a spell,
I'm not sure how to handle this, this feeling inside.
I don't think you realise my heart feels unwell,
And it's you that makes me feel like I just wanna hide.

I'm all over you, I don't know what to do,
But I'm feeling so fine.
This feeling inside, I don't know where to hide,
Please say you are mine.

But it scares me how quickly I've fallen for you,
I don't do this, I'm falling head over heels with you.

I'm all over you, I don't know what to do,
But I'm feeling so fine.
This feeling inside, I don't know where to hide,
Please say you are mine.
This feeling I keep as I'm watching you sleep,
I don't know what to do.
I need you to know I'm not letting you go,
'Cause I've fallen for you.

But it scares me how quickly I've fallen for you,
I don't do this, I'm falling head over heels with you.
Yeah and it scares me how quickly I've fallen for you,
I don't do this, I'm falling head over heels with you.

Gods of Self Destruction

Pray to the gods of self destruction,
Trying to dodge the self infliction,
Scars that never heal.
Turning, you face the inquisition,
Facing the obvious prediction,
Trying to just feel.

Wanting to feel
Anything at all except this emptiness inside your soul.
Reaching out to
Take a hold of sanity, hold it tight and don't let go.

Take control
Trying not to
Self implode
But you can't help it.

Learning a hard knock education,
Searching to reach the affirmation
Life ain't worth the pain.
Having to face the alienation,
Brought on yourself by your decision
To shoulder the blame.

Wanting to feel
Anything at all except this emptiness inside your soul.
Reaching out to
Take a hold of sanity, hold it tight and don't let go.

Take control
Trying not to
Self implode
But you can't help it
You do it to yourself so you can feel.
You can't help it
You do it to yourself to make it real.

Pray to the gods of self destruction,
Trying to dodge the self infliction,
Scars that never heal.
Turning, I face the inquisition,
Facing the obvious prediction,
Trying to just feel.

Wanting to feel
Anything at all except this emptiness inside my soul.
Reaching out to
Take a hold of sanity, I hold it tight and don't let go.

Take control
Trying not to
Self implode
But I can't help it
Take control
Trying not to
Self implode
But I can't help it

Haunting Me

I think about you too much,
I think of the things we used to do.
I miss those little things you say,
I can't believe I messed it up with you.

It's been so long since you were mine,
It's been too long and I can't turn back the time.

And I can't break free from these memories,
I can't break free, it's haunting me.

Where did it go so wrong?
Where did it all blow up so fast?
I thought we would be inseparable,
I really thought that this would last.

It's been so long since you were mine,
It's been too long and I can't turn back the time.

And I can't break free from these memories,
I can't break free, it's haunting me.

You went away and now I don't know
In which direction I must go.

Higher State of Consciousness

I see you as before,
None of this has happened yet, it's all the same.
Everything is fine,
I haven't fucked it all up yet, I take no blame.

None of this is real,
We're past the point of no return, no going back.
I've seen this all before,
This reality is fake, the dream fades to black.

So why can't we just dream?
Then I can relive every moment I had with you.
Forever just a dream,
A higher state of consciousness, a perfect view.

I hate the way this feels,
An empty space inside my heart, it's breaking fast.
It wasn't meant to be,
Nothing this good was ever meant to last.

So why can't we just dream?
Then I can relive every moment I had with you.
Forever just a dream,
A higher state of consciousness, a perfect view.

I just don't think I can take this,
Hide in my shell and bottle it up inside.

I Listened To The Voices

I wanna kill someone right now,
To dampen my anger by causing you pain.
You picked the wrong guy to oppress,
You shoulda started on someone who’s sane.
The blood in my veins feels on fire,
The adrenaline overload takes over me,
Filling my mind with this rage,
Making it so there’s just you I can see.

Don’t blame me when you all wake up dead,
I’ll just say I listened to the voices in my head.

You don’t seem to realise this isn’t a joke,
I don’t make threats lightly, take that as you will.
All I care about is that I’ll have my revenge,
And then send your parents the dry-cleaning bill.

I’m sick of your bitching, back-stabbing,
Hiding behind words, decadent and weak.
You’re nice when you meet me in person,
But that’s coz you’re just too cowardly to speak.

Don’t blame me when you all wake up dead,
I’ll just say I listened to the voices in my head.

Try me,
Try me,
Try me if you dare.
Hit me,
Hurt me,
Come see if I care.
Call me,
Taunt me,
Do as you see fit.
No more,
No more,
No more will I take it.
You will not win,
You’ll not see me cry.
Push me once more
And it’s your turn to die.

Nothing Could Ever Burn Brighter

I am the loner, I am the enemy.
I am the man you first love and then hate.
Everyone I touch I affect in some way,
And never is it with indifference.

There are two sides to generating these feelings,
My circle of friends is ever decreasing.
Half full or half empty? Depends how you view it,
My blessing, my curse, I'd have no other way.

Every connection, friend or foe:
The fires of passion, a blink of an eye.
It never lasts as long as it should,
But nothing could ever burn brighter.

I am the shadow, I am the night,
I am the man you just love to despise.
Everywhere I look someone's looking back,
And never is it with indifference.

There are two sides to generating these feelings,
My circle of friends is ever decreasing.
Half full or half empty? Depends how you view it,
My blessing, my curse, I'd have no other way.

Every connection, friend or foe:
The fires of passion, a blink of an eye.
It never lasts as long as it should,
But nothing could ever burn brighter.

I am the man you first love and then hate,
Long after we part I'll still be in your head.

There are two sides to generating these feelings,
My circle of friends is ever decreasing.
Half full or half empty? Depends how you view it,
My blessing, my curse, I'd have no other way.

Every connection, friend or foe:
The fires of passion, a blink of an eye.
It never lasts as long as it should,
But nothing could ever burn brighter.

On The Edge

This world doesn't interest me anymore,
Why carry on when there's nothing to live for?
Why should I go through life on my own?
I can't do this alone.
I feel disillusioned with this life,
It cuts through my sanity like a knife.
Boredom sets in when there's nothing to motivate
Feelings of love and hate.

Why strive for thin when the world is fat?
Where do you go if you're not sure where you're at?
What do you do when there's nothing
Nothing to do but think?

I'm on the edge, I'm looking down on the people below,
What is there to stop me? I'm gonna jump.
I'm on the edge, I'm looking down on the people below,
There's nothing to stop me.
I think I'm, I think I'm gonna jump.

I've got no friends or family to keep me sane,
I'm on the outside looking through the rain.
Everyone is looking so happy,
Why can't that be me?

Why strive for right when the world is wrong?
If you look it's already been too long.
What do you do when there's nothing,
Nothing to do but die?

I'm on the edge, I'm looking down on the people below,
What is there to stop me? I'm gonna jump.
I'm on the edge, I'm looking down on the people below.
There's nothing to stop me,
I think I'm, I think I'm gonna jump.

I'm gonna jump.

Persona

Here comes the emptiness again.
Feel there’s a hole in my soul needing to be occupied soon.
Why should I go through this again?
Why do I do this? I don’t want to but I can’t let go.

Moving from heartache to heartache, heartbreak to heartbreak.
The fear of never eclipsing lost love.
Heartache to heartache, heartbreak to heartbreak.
Maybe I’m nothing without you in my life.

What do I do? What do I say?
Is this existence the only way?
Where do I go? What do I see?
Maybe I’m nothing if you’re not with me.

So where do I go now from here?
This dying feeling inside, nothing seems to make it stop.
So why do I even bother?
Just live me life alone, block out the highs to quench the lows.

Moving from heartache to heartache, heartbreak to heartbreak.
The fear of never eclipsing lost love.
Heartache to heartache, heartbreak to heartbreak.
Maybe I’m nothing without you in my life.

What do I do? What do I say?
Is this existence the only way?
Where do I go? What do I see?
Maybe I’m nothing if you’re not with me.

I can’t do this, this constant search for happiness,
Moving on and looking round, but never truly happy.
Maybe I should hide my feelings, never show any emotion,
Change my whole persona just to stop the pain from getting in.

What do I do? What do I say?
Is this existence the only way?
Where do I go? What do I see?
Maybe I’m nothing if you’re not with me.

Maybe I’m nothing, maybe I’m nothing,
Maybe I’m nothing if I’m without you.

Resolution

Come here my friend,
(Come sit by the fire with me)
This is not the end
(Do what we can to make them see)
We won't let this lie
(This travesty won't fade)
When it all comes down to live or die
(A resolution must be made)

No-one can take this away
No-one can censor our say

Heart-breaking
Soul-shaking
Something like this can't go unnoticed
Heart-breaking
Soul-shaking
Something like this can't go unpunished

No-one can take this away
No-one can censor our say

Take them away
There's nothing else to say
We cannot take this anymore
Hatred like this
Will only end one way
When all around us hits the floor

Come here my friend
This is the end
When we all hate this way
We all have to pay

No-one can take this away
No-one can censor our say

Take them away
There's nothing else to say
We cannot take this anymore
Hatred like this
Will only end one way
When all around us hits the floor

Search For Tomorrow

Once upon a time I had everything and stupidly threw it away.
Everything I long for I gave up yesterday.
This self-destructive nature is slowly killing me,
i need someone to exorcise my demons and finally set me free.

Come take me away from here.

I do not long for yesterday,
It's tomorrow I'm searching for.
The things that I do
I hope lead me to you
And I no longer ask for more.
I no longer ask for more.

Once upon a time I was happy, don't remember the last time that was.
A part of me just won't accept it, won't let me be happy because
Surely no-one will accept me, accept me for just who I am.
I push them away before they can and pretend that I don't give a damn.

But I can't hide from the truth.

I do not long for yesterday,
It's tomorrow I'm searching for.
The things that I do
I hope lead me to you
And I no longer ask for more.
I no longer ask for more.

Every day I struggle to get out of bed,
It's a struggle to get this feeling out of my head:
What's the point in living when there's no-one to live for?

I do not long for yesterday,
It's tomorrow I'm searching for.
The things that I do
I hope lead me to you
And I no longer ask for more.
I no longer ask for more.

Smother

 This knife weighs heavy on my mind,
No other purpose I can find, 
Revenge is all that I can think of.
Was long ago, I still can't sleep,
Psychologically the wound is deep,
Revenge is all that I can think of.

Just give me one good reason why
I shouldn't leave you here to die.
Feelings this strong I can't smother,
I can't think of any other
Way to lay this hate to rest.

As I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts of hate still fill my head,
Revenge is all that I can think of.
This thing will never be over
Until you are six foot under,
Revenge is all that I can think of.

Just give me one good reason why
I shouldn't leave you here to die.
Feelings this strong I can't smother,
I can't think of any other
Way to lay this hate to rest.

I lie awake at night and think,
It's driving me to the brink,
Revenge is all that I can think of.
And if you're listening you'll know
There's no way I can let this go,
Revenge is all that I can think of.

Just give me one good reason why
I shouldn't leave you here to die.
Feelings this strong I can't smother,
I can't think of any other
Way to lay this hate to rest.

I can't think of any thing else
Other than revenge.

Sorry

Should I say sorry?
Should I get down on my knees and beg you for forgiveness?
Should I say sorry?
I'm sorry but I just don't give a shit.

They say you’re no-one until someone hates you
So thankyou for making me someone.
Your hate and your lies help sustain me
And give me a reason to sing.

For someone to feel this much hate towards me
I must be doing something right.
So keep bringing it on, please come bring it on,
I love that you hate me this way.

Should I say sorry?
Should I get down on my knees and beg you for forgiveness?
Should I say sorry?
I'm sorry but I just don't give a shit.

I actually find it quite funny
That your feelings for me are so strong.
There's a very fine line between love and hate
Are you sure you know which side you're on?

Should I say sorry?
Should I get down on my knees and beg you for forgiveness?
Should I say sorry?
I'm sorry but I just don't give a shit.

You say that i did you wrong, I made it this way.
I say I treated you how you deserved to be treated.
I don't do anything without a reason to do it.
And you did this.

Please tell me: why do you hate me?
What exactly was it I did?
Look in the mirror and see your own lies
For your own misgivings I'm just your excuse.

Should I say sorry?
Should I get down on my knees and beg you for forgiveness?
Should I say sorry?
I'm sorry but I just don't give a shit.

They say you’re no-one until someone hates you
So thankyou for making me someone.

Thou Shall Not Kill

Do you want to play a game?
Will the outcome be the same?
Do you enjoy the sound of women and children
Dying at your feet?
Do you think it's worth the price?
The millions spent to feed your vice?
Could this money be put to better use:
Feed those with nothing to eat?

So roll the dice,
You get a six and you can shoot him twice.
Isn't that what this is all about?
It's just a game to you.
But whilst you have fun
There's little kids running around with guns
All to put a smile on your face,
They kill coz they're ordered to.

Let's start a war
What the hell is it for?
Let's start a war
What is it for?

So come on tell us, what is it for?
You say you're fighting your holy war.
But if you left people alone they might not rise up against you.
You and I, we know the truth,
But no conviction without some proof,
All you want is oil and for that you'd kill if you have to.

Let's start a war
What the hell is it for?
Let's start a war
What is it for?

Thou
Shall
Not
Kill

Warmth Inside

God it's been so long, I think about you day and night.
Never off my mind, come to me and turn off the light.
It's all I can think of, this yearning for you won't subside,
I need you here right now, come to me and pull me inside.

Swallow me down, swallow me down.

Day and night it's all I think of,
I need you now I can't get enough.
I need to feel you wrapped around me,
Come with me, I'll make you see:
You're the one that I dream about,
Help me let these feelings spill out,
I wanna feel the warmth inside you,
I can't stop, there's nothing I can do.

I need you here with me, you don't understand what I would do
To have you here right now, there's so many things I'd do with you.
I need to feel you now, to feel you pulsating around me,
Drawing me inside, there is nowhere I'd rather be.

Pull me inside, pull me inside.

Day and night it's all I think of,
I need you now I can't get enough.
I need to feel you wrapped around me,
Come with me, I'll make you see:
You're the one that I dream about,
Help me let these feelings spill out.
I wanna feel the warmth inside you,
I can't stop, there's nothing I can do.

What Doesn't Kill You

I hear a sound, a knock at my door,
You're there saying it's the phone for me.
I go downstairs, put the phone to my ear,
But all I hear is silence.
Put the phone down and I go back upstairs,
Into my flat where I should be alone.
Look around at all the faces there,
The door slams as I'm thrown to the floor.

There's lots of shouting as I see your face.
You're snarling at me as you go for my throat.
Having to fight another guy by my side,
Feel my hand sting as I grab hold of the bar.
Turn my attention to him, wrestling with him,
To get the weapon before he can use it.
Someone shouts "stab him" and I cry out in pain,
Look down to see you pull a knife out of me.

All I can think of is I'm going to die.
All I can think of is I'm going to die.
All I can think of is I'm going to die.
All I can think of is I'm going to die.

I remember as if yesterday,
What I was thinking throughout all the pain.
It haunts my dreams, it has done all these years.
I long to make you feel what I felt.

No time to panic as you stab me again,
Put my hand to my throat and come away red.
Using my hands as shields to parry your stabs,
It's pretty obvious you've murder in mind.
Hands torn to ribbons as you're slashing away,
Nothing I can do but repel your attacks.
Red river flowing from my neck and my hands,
Suddenly you're gone and I'm left here to die.

All I can think of is I'm going to die.
All I can think of is I'm going to die.
All I can think of is I'm going to die.
All I can think of is I'm going to die.

I remember as if yesterday,
What I was thinking throughout all the pain.
It haunts my dreams, it has done all these years.
I long to make you feel what I felt.

To quote the cliche
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
And in it's own way
That sums my life up perfectly.
Nothing you do, nothing you say,
Nothing you throw at me will stop me in my tracks.
The only way to stop me is to finish what you started.

© Jason Cordingley 2010 - 2011